We’re in a season of massive reorientation. Big systems, both internal and external, are changing course. It’s not just in your head that everything feels like too much, too fast, and too unfamiliar. Your nervous system isn’t making this up.
It’s responding in real time to a truth that hasn’t quite landed in language yet.
There are deep forces moving through all of us right now. The kind that don’t just tweak the dial but pick up the whole radio, shake it, and change the frequency completely. Which means you may be feeling sped up and slowed down. Exhausted and restless. Sensitive and reactive.
It’s okay if your usual way of managing things isn’t working. The road is under construction. And the map is being redrawn.
Even good changes can feel threatening
Over the weekend, my husband and I tried to make the duck courtyard more comfortable for the incoming summer heat. We strung up soft and light shade cloth six feet above their pool, like a little protective canopy. It seemed like a perfect solution.
The ducks thought otherwise.
Sensitive to movement in the sky, they refused to go near the courtyard. For hours, they huddled at the edges, watching the unfamiliar cloth overhead with suspicion and fear. In their world, something that looks like a wide shadow across the sky isn’t an upgrade. It’s a predator. Their instincts told them: don’t trust this.
Even when we were just trying to help.
That’s how some transitions feel right now. Like something new is overhead, casting a shadow we don’t recognize. And no matter how “smart” or “positive” the change might be, part of us still pulls back in caution. We’re wired for survival first, understanding later.
So we took the shade cloth down. Not because it was bad, but because it wasn’t time. The ducks will find their own shade when they need it. Their wisdom doesn’t always look like trust, but it’s still wisdom.
You’re not resisting growth. You’re metabolizing change.
If you’re feeling frustrated with yourself for not being able to “adjust faster” to everything changing…take a beat. You’re in transition.
We’re living through a time of overlapping upgrades. Things that have stayed the same for decades are shifting now, and the soul doesn’t rush integration. It watches, listens, and adjusts slowly to what it learns to trust.
That might look like:
- Needing more sleep, even though you feel “wired”
- Feeling emotional over things you thought were resolved
- Getting irritated more easily, then guilty for being reactive
- Wanting to clear your schedule without knowing why
- Feeling like you’re not yourself, even though you’re not sure who else you’d be
None of this means you’re regressing, by the way. It means you’re listening. It also means something in you knows the difference between real support and false safety. And it’s not going to fake it anymore.
To put it even more simply into self-reflecting questions (because thank you for the comments – you like them!) …
What part of you is speaking more loudly than is usual for you?
What signal are you receiving that you haven’t yet acknowledged?
What if your sensitivity isn’t a problem but a built-in guidance system?
What if you don’t have to override it? What if you could trust it to lead you through?
Before you go…
If it feels like life is too much right now, that’s because it kind of is. Not in the catastrophic sense but in the catalytic one.
I feel as though something bigger is reconfiguring itself. It’s in your body, your soul, and your life story. It’s okay to step back from what feels loud and take the shade cloth down to let your nervous system decide what it’s ready for. There’s time.
And if you need a gentle mirror, or a reminder, or a presence to walk beside you while it all goes down, you know I’m here.
